Wednesday, September 24, 2025

9-24-2025 Wednesday Morning Thoughts

Good morning, et cetera, dear Reader, and welcome to this free, obscure American blog, where we are fortunately (again! haha) out of cigarettes and waiting on coffee.



Well, I failed at my doctor's office yesterday; the man gave me multiple opportunities to confess to the cigarette smoking and seek his help for it by asking "Are you sure there's nothing else?" - a few times. Even though it was more like "Hey, I already know, are you going to be honest with me?"

But, no; here comes dumbass me with pride and fear running the show.  I was just too embarrassed primarily (pride), since I'd made it nearly a decade without them before; public admissions of stupidity, it turns out, can be challenging and/or difficult; I should have prepared better mentally before going in.

Great, so now, instead of just handling it correctly the first time, like I should have and know to do, NO. I lied, and here we are. It's not like he won't find out or doesn't already know!

Now I could have just owned it and told him the fact that I'm not sure that I trust any of the smoking-cessation aids that Big Pharma has come up with to date; like Chantix ('may cause suicidal ideations' - what?!) Seems to me like just smoking is the safer option between the two, but I do see that this very statement itself is a logical fallacy. 😟 haha, I should write a book "How to kick your own ass with Logic" but I digress.

Sorry, but this mind needs zero help with overly-histrionic ideations, thank you! That's why it's a hard-pass on that (Chantix), and any other 'remedy' if that dangerous side-effect is even a remote potentiality and, given the fact that I'm already diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, doesn't that make the odds of those dangerous side-effects even more likely (for me)? Now, I've got to do something - but prescription remedies, the ones I'm aware of, those aren't going to cut it, I'm afraid. Every time I've quit these things so far in life, it's been just me putting them down and walking away from them, full stop.


I'd love to blame external forces but, like all of my other character weaknesses and failures - and there are many, it's 100% an inside job here; nobody can do this for me, I've got to be adult enough to fully own it. And now I have to apologize to my doctor for insulting his intelligence, yes, but primarily for the sin of lying to him; I despise lying, even and maybe especially from myself and am not proud of this behavior, but truth is truth so at least I can start there and take the next steps toward restoration by first admitting it. And I can only do that because I am first willing to admit it to myself. (Remember the recent Scripture about the light in you being darkness? To me, that's all about being honest with ourselves to equip and enable us to be honest with others and, as you can see, it's not a recipe for perfection - look at my own failure from yesterday as a living, current example). So, I'm still not perfect (to nobody's surprise including my own) but praise God that He's given us the instructions for how to rightly handle it when we mess up. Isn't it great to have instructions? 


Here is today's Proverb (Proverbs 24 ESV) dear Reader. And here it is in audio format as well because "Faith cometh by hearing, and hearing the Word of God"


May we each be brave enough to do right things today, may He create situations for repentance and empower us beyond our human, prideful fears as He works in and through us for the accomplishment of His will, in Jesus' Name, amen. 


Sunday, September 21, 2025

54 feels just like 53, on September 21st, 2025

Good morning, et cetera, dear Reader, and welcome!
We find ourselves above ground today and, soon, the Sun *will* rise again - a daily announcement that HE IS, His mercies towards all of us brand new with each new day (see Lamentations 3:22-23). 





I woke up to a miracle today; my friend, Claudia, was riding her bicycle in Dallas and a massive truck hit her! Miraculously, the truck dragged her and did not roll over her, which probably would have been life-ending. No, when the driver figured out that something was wrong, he immediately stopped and summoned aid. From what she says, they were both surprised. So it's the first birthday gift that the Lord let me wake up to, Him showing out in the lives of people I love as witness to me, to you, to us all. Great is His faithfulness. 💖

Between you and me, dear Reader, I'm not discouraged one iota, looking around the 1987 fifth-wheel camper that we currently live in, with its numerous structural challenges that just naturally come with that situation. Our meager income also can't quell the Hope in my heart, because I can feel and see what is coming for us, and not just for us, but - more importantly! - for those we are called to serve. the Lord will provide a beautiful, safe home with all the necessities, enough to share with and care for all who come to our door. (and, remember: ALL means ALL - period).
Yes, that's what God has in store for us! It's only a matter of time now and we're excited to see how He will make these things manifest. Remember that, "Faith is the evidence of things unseen, the substance of that which is hoped for" and this morning?
This human heart is FULL of faith, for which I am very grateful - that alone is a priceless gift, straight from the heart of God Himself, because if I were to be lead by only what I see, despair would surely take hold and guide me down a path of emotional darkness, but the very opposite is true for me today. Thank You, Lord. I pray for you, dear Reader, that you, also, receive hope and encouragement directly from the throne of grace to lift you up above any and all seemingly-insurmountable circumstances, that your spirit will, indeed, soar on wings as eagles, high above the mundane, with your hearts and minds focusing on Jesus, the Alpha and Omega, our Creator Who fashions us from dust before birth and receives us each with loving, open Arms when He calls us Home.
I love you. Please pray for everyone you know, and our nation, and our world, and seek to meet everyone where they are out of mercy and kindness and thank you for your efforts. 💜


Saturday, September 20, 2025

September 20th, 20205 Part II - the sequel

Hello (again?) dear Reader, and welcome. It's been a few hours: the Sun is shining though it's not deathly-hot (yet); all of our creatures are secure and resting calmly. 



Right now, I'm going nuts for a cigarette, but there's just no way it's going to happen. On the one hand, it really, really sucks! But, on the other hand, I - like literally everyone else on Planet Earth without exception - do not "need" them, no matter how much my flesh argues to the contrary.



Yeah, I am irrefutably a Christian, but that is precisely due to the fact that I AM NOT a "saint", but rather a sinner through and through in dire need of God and His help, every day, every breath, period. I throw myself on His mercy and put all of my trust in the price He paid on the cross, period. So, if you can relate to that, great! And, if you can't, honey, I can't create the first-hand experiential knowledge for you, only He can do that, and I pray that He does and soon, for all eyes who read these words or hear them read aloud by someone else, in Jesus' Name, amen.



See, I'm a weirdo in that, I want ALL of us to make it, and I do not care if you are: a different race from me, different politically, different in your faith or no faith at all, none of these things make a hill of beans' worth of difference to me: ALL means ALL, period.



So, when I see my brethren going down wrong (familiar to me!) paths, I feel compelled to try and pull them back, feeling like the very least that I can do as a person trying to be a decent human, is to speak the truth - but to speak that truth in love. That critical, latter part has me often holding my tongue because the facts are almost readily there - it's the 'in love' part that I often have to wait on. And, then, when I feel that I can speak to a thing without damaging the hearer, then I feel like that's the right time to go in. I just don't know how to do any better, but I'm willing to learn if you guys know of a way (please). 
 
That's all I've got for now. It's important to speak the truth in love, always in love though. Take care, thanks, see you next time (God willing). 

I have had enough! On September 20th, 2025

Good morning, dear Reader, and welcome to yet another day above ground. Unfortunately, I had vivid nightmares last night which is why I'm glad that I almost never dream, or, if I do, that I wake up without remembering the dreams more than 99% of the time. In fact, I can't recall the last remembered dream of any kind that I had, it's been multiple years now, until last night.


And now. I'm sick and damned tired of liars on the left telling deliberate LIES and twisting words intentionally taken out of context in the effort to paint a MURDERED MAN as some kind of vicious person that HE WAS NOT.

Click HERE to debunk ALL of the far-left's litany of LIES right now. And I don't want to hear ONE WORD FROM ANYONE until you've read the entire thing and watched EVERY SINGLE VIDEO!!!
TRUTH MATTERS.
You do NOT get to INVENT THINGS because you do NOT LIKE TRUTH. PERIOD. 



Jesus Christ, people, have some damned integrity for once!
If you're willing to LIE to yourself, you WILL BECOME INCAPABLE of discerning fact from fiction, it's a 100% GUARANTEE. So, if you're not already TOO FAR GONE, get on board with TRUTH and that will be a good first step in keeping you from the eternal fires of HELL. 

Now. Here is today's Proverb which I will have to read again when I'm not so damned angry, I've already read it but was too mad to retain anything so a repeat is in my near future this morning. And, mad or not, I pray that Truth WILL pierce your hearts and souls and bring genuine repentance of evil, as I pray for myself as well, asking for these things in Jesus' Name. Nobody is perfect, everyone can get things wrong. But to do so deliberately IS DEMONIC and WILL NOT BE TOLERATED. PERIOD. 

Wednesday, September 17, 2025

Today is September 17th, 2025!

Greetings and salutations, dear Reader, and welcome to this obscure, American blog! It's pretty hot to many of you for this time of year, at least if you're here in the Northern Hemisphere. According to Google, it's only 73F outside, but I'm in my mid-fifties and, *man* am I hot right now! 😂



I sure hope this grant-writing thing takes off soon, we're pretty sick and tired of living in a $300, 30 year old 5th wheel camper. We are grateful, we make it work, but naturally, better is better; right? He's on retirement, and I hadn't worked for nearly ten years, primarily due to my health. Recently I've found that I can do grant-writing from home, at any and all hours, and that accommodates my need for frequent rest and multiple doctor appointments. Primarily, though, if I'm able to actually help secure funding for the numerous nonprofits who need the help, that's aces in my book - everyone wins! 😎


Getting back to our current situation, it might sound dire to some of you, but it's never far from my mind how wealthy we truly are, especially in comparison to so, so many other people of the world right now! I mean, we have: food, clothing, shelter, luxuries like air conditioning and a car of our own, and I could go on. We are so blessed! And the best part is the fact that God is with us. Who could ask for anything more, right? We would like to be more comfortable, physically, though, and of course, we want to spoil our animals even more than they are now and that takes money. 

It's all good, though! Money comes and goes, after all. I'm just ready for a bit of it to trickle back in to our lives. It's tough out there, y'all. I'm sure you know, though, dear Reader, right?! 

I finally submitted a full grant request to one organization today and feel many things at once: first, is "yay! I think I did it!" followed immediately by "Oh my GOSH, now what's going to happen?" with an immediate "and now... we wait" type of thing. 

I also have this major list of tasks required in order to finally get the local homeless shelter and resource center up and running so that we can finally serve the precious, important people who Jesus calls "the least of these" in the New Testament. It will be such an honor to bring people the comforts of life: food, clothing, hygiene and laundry needs, somewhere to go inside from the elements and be safe, somewhere to rest, somewhere that they will each and all be treated with kindness and dignity above all else, period. That's the goal. God dropped this in my heart and I'll do all that I can while I live to make this happen. For them. For Him! 

What dreams are on your heart today, dear Reader? 


Sunday, September 14, 2025

Why The Meaning of Words Matters in 2025

 Good morning, et cetera, dear Reader, and welcome to this obscure American blog as I sit to write down thoughts in the hours before dawn, here in the beautiful Sonoran Desert

True Meanings vs. Political Abuse

Let's begin Socratically: What happens when words lose their precision? They become weapons, not tools for understanding. Consider these terms, drawn from historical and definitional sources.

  • Nazi: Historically, Nazism (National Socialism) was the far-right totalitarian ideology of Adolf Hitler's Nazi Party (NSDAP) in Germany from 1933–1945. It fused intense nationalism, racial supremacy (especially anti-Semitism), militarism, and state control over society and economy, culminating in the Holocaust and World War II.
    In current U.S. and global rhetoric, it's abused as a slur for anyone perceived as authoritarian or bigoted—e.g., labeling immigration policies or conservative figures as "Nazi" without evidence of genocidal intent or totalitarianism. This dilutes the term's gravity, equating policy disagreements with systematic extermination.
  • Fascist: True fascism is a far-right, authoritarian ultra-nationalist movement (originating in early 20th-century Italy under Mussolini) that exalts nation and often race above individuals, suppresses opposition through force, and merges state with corporate power while promoting militarism.
    Politically, it's flung loosely at leaders like Trump (called fascist for isolationism or rhetoric) or opponents in Europe (e.g., Italian far-right distorting fascist history to sanitize it). This conflates strongman tactics with the full regime of violent suppression and expansionism, turning nuance into hyperbole.
  • Dictator: A dictator wields absolute power in a state, often via emergency decree, crushing dissent and controlling military/economy (e.g., ancient Roman figures or modern autocrats like Stalin).
    In rhetoric, it's slapped on elected officials for controversial decisions—e.g., Biden or Trump accused of "dictatorial" overreach in 2024 elections—ignoring checks like courts or elections that true dictators dismantle.

Abuse thrives in echo chambers: A 2024 study notes Americans struggle to spot factual vs. opinion claims amid bias, fueling vitriol. From multiple perspectives, left-leaning voices decry right-wing "fascism" to rally bases; right-leaning ones flip it on "woke dictatorships." Both erode trust—ask yourself: Does this label illuminate or inflame?

On The Importance of Separating Opinion/Feelings from Facts

Truthfully, conflating them poisons discourse: Facts are verifiable (e.g., "X passed a law"); opinions interpretive ("X's law is evil"); feelings subjective ("It scares me"). Blurring them, per research, hinders info competence, amplifies misinformation, and polarizes—half of Americans can't distinguish them, per 2024 data. Compassionately, this hurts everyone: It silences empathy (e.g., dismissing fears as "just feelings" ignores valid concerns) and entrenches division. From a global lens, it echoes propaganda in authoritarian regimes. Socratically: If your outrage stems from fact or fury? Prioritizing facts fosters dialogue; mixing them breeds violence. Improve by questioning sources—seek diverse views to see others' truths. De-Escalating Political Violence: US and Global Strategies

Violence escalates when rhetoric dehumanizes; de-escalation demands collective will. Here's a concise framework, informed by experts:



Start small: In conversations, pause and affirm shared humanity. Truthfully, if you're contributing to heat, repent of it—admit wrongs to heal divides. If conversations become heated, agree to break and circle back to the topic later when passions have cooled and both parties have had time to reflect and process. Be determined and committed to maintaining civility, both for yourself as well as from yourself in the focused aim of finding common ground together. Remember, too, that it is perfectly fine to truly agree to disagree, especially here in the currently-still-free United States.


And now a prayer for God's help and guidance:

Father, in this fractured world, grant us wisdom to speak truth with compassion, eyes to see from every heart's vantage, and courage to choose peace over pride. Bind wounds of division, soften hardened spirits, and guide leaders toward justice. In Jesus' name.


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AI Weighs in: Political Hyperbole and Reversing the Destructive Course in 2025

AI says:
Political hyperbole is the use of exaggerated and extravagant statements in political discourse for rhetorical effect. This form of communication is often not intended to be taken literally, but to emphasize a point, grab attention, and sway public opinion. [1, 2, 3]


Characteristics and function
  • A tool for persuasion: Politicians use hyperbole to create strong impressions, stir up emotions, and cast their own platforms or character in a positive, larger-than-life light while negatively portraying opponents.
  • Emphasis through exaggeration: By describing situations in extreme, outsized terms (e.g., calling a policy a "disaster" or a problem a "carnage"), speakers make their point seem more urgent and significant.
  • Can blur lines with deception: The strategic use of hyperbole, particularly in the current media landscape, can make it difficult for voters to distinguish between genuine exaggeration and outright lies.
  • Promotes political polarization: Studies have shown that elites increasingly engage in hyperbole, a tactic that can exacerbate political polarization, especially through platforms that reward and amplify exaggerated claims, such as social media and echo chambers. [2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7]
Legal protection as free speech


In the United States, political hyperbole is generally protected under the First Amendment and often arises as a defense in defamation cases.
  • The Watts case (1969): The Supreme Court case Watts v. United States is a landmark example that affirmed this protection. An anti-war protestor was arrested for stating, "If they ever make me carry a rifle, the first man I want to get in my sights is L.B.J." The court ruled that this statement was "crude political hyperbole" rather than a "true threat" and was therefore protected speech.
  • The Watts factors: This case established a test, or "Watts factors," for distinguishing protected speech from true threats by considering the context, the conditional nature of the statement, and the reaction of the audience.
  • Difficult to sue for defamation: Courts have ruled that when a public figure's language is so heated or exaggerated that a reasonable person would not take it as a statement of fact, it is difficult to successfully sue for defamation. [4, 8, 9, 10, 11]
Factors driving increased use


The rise of the 24-hour news cycle and the widespread use of social media have significantly increased the prevalence and intensity of political hyperbole. These platforms often incentivize extreme, attention-grabbing rhetoric. [5, 12, 13]



So I said: 
Now please formulate how we as a society world-wide can collectively work to counter, change, or better yet reverse, this destructive trend that foments violence, hate, and death. and AI said:

To counter the destructive tide of political hyperbole—where exaggeration foments violence, hate, and death—we must confront our complicity first. Have you, like me in moments of frustration, amplified division with your own heated words? If so, pause: true reversal begins with repentance, admitting where our rhetoric has wounded others, and vowing to speak with measured grace. This isn't weakness; it's the compassionate pivot toward healing, seeing adversaries not as enemies but as shared bearers of divine image. From multiple lenses—voters, leaders, media shapers, tech stewards—here's a formulated, collective blueprint, drawn from global insights. It's Socratic: not prescriptions, but provocations. What one step will you claim today?


Collective Strategies for Worldwide Reversal

Foster Intergroup Empathy and Contact: Prioritize face-to-face dialogues across divides, like community forums or "perspective-taking" workshops where participants role-play opponents' views. This reduces false perceptions of extremism, as studies show it rebuilds trust by humanizing "the other." Globally, scale via international NGOs (e.g., adapting Europe's "deliberative democracy" assemblies) to bridge cultural chasms—imagine rural farmers debating urban elites on climate policy, not as foes but co-stewards of earth.


Reform Media and Tech Ecosystems: Demand platforms algorithmically prioritize "kinder" content—downplaying fringes, amplifying median voices and shared values—while users commit to "social media diets" limiting echo-chamber scrolls. Worldwide, advocate for cross-border regulations (e.g., expanding EU's Digital Services Act) that penalize hyperbole-fueled misinformation, rewarding fact-checked nuance. Tech firms: audit for polarization; citizens: call out your own side's excesses without tribal loyalty.


Educate for Media Literacy and Civic Humility: Embed global curricula teaching hyperbole's pitfalls—spotting "carnage" claims as emotional bait, not fact—while modeling cooperative discourse in schools and workplaces. From Asia's community mediation programs to Africa's youth peacebuilding networks, integrate Socratic questioning: "What evidence tempers this outrage?" Leaders: reward compromise in policy, not just viral zingers.


Amplify Cross-Partisan Alliances: Build diverse coalitions—politicians with rivals, voters across aisles—focusing on universal goods like health or security, viewing differences as political, not existential threats. Internationally, UN-led summits could enforce "hyperbole audits" in campaigns, fostering humility: If hyperbole killed dialogue, what life-giving words revive it?


These aren't utopian; they're tested threads for reversal, but they demand your intuitive buy-in—seeing from the marginalized's view, the elite's pressure, the child's fear of inherited hate. Where have you let hyperbole harden your heart? Soften it now, with compassion that listens before it lambasts.


Heavenly Father, in this fractured world, kindle in us the fire of unity over division, truth over exaggeration, love over loathing. Empower societies to dismantle walls of words that breed death, raising instead bridges of mercy that heal nations. Guide leaders, voters, and creators toward Your reconciling peace, that violence may yield to justice, hate to embrace, and death to abundant life. In Jesus' name

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Friday, September 12, 2025

September 13, 2025 Thoughts

Hello, dear Reader, and welcome! Those of us on this side of Sheol are truly fortunate; the gift of life itself merits our gratitude, in both good times and bad. After reading through today's Proverb and playing around on the perfume website, I ate some potato chips with coffee and called it 'breakfast'. 👏


Okay, so I told y'all about how my husband and I chose to (stupidly, at least unwisely) start smoking cigarettes again - and we decided last night that, as of today, we will not be smoking cigarettes any more, so help us God. I took 60mg of oral Prednisone last night and will take another 40 mg today and tomorrow, followed by two days at 20 mg each, and finally two more days at 10 mg each (using the leftovers from a friend's Rx - don't judge me, haha! Those who know me in real life know that I've always been an enthusiast for finding helpful asthma medication on the Black Market) 👀

Anyway, in two approximate weeks I've gone from having my singing voice back to veritably no voice at all as of this moment, from feeling pretty normal and alright most of the time, to definitely *not*. The expense, the social stain, the fact that cigarettes in no way, shape, form or fashion serve to glorify God... I mean, how much reason do I need?! Right? Regardless of these things, I *still* got up and immediately smoked all the butts that we had. So you see, there's no way that I could *really* be as 'smart' as some mistakenly think
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Thursday, September 11, 2025

Reflecting on 9/11 and Recent Tragedies - 2025

Good morning, dear Reader, and welcome to another day above ground—a gift not everyone received today. As we mark the 24th anniversary of the September 11, 2001, attacks, I’m reflecting on the weight of that tragedy and recent losses, such as the reported murder of Charlie Kirk, a prominent conservative commentator, and the school shooting that occurred in Colorado on the very same day. These events stir grief in my heart, as I know they do for many of you. Let’s pause—selah, which some interpret as a call to reflect in the Psalms—to let this reality sink in. In this moment, I’m praying not just for answers, but to hear God’s heart, trusting He is near the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). May He guide us toward healing and justice, in Jesus’ Name, amen.



It’s early here in the Mountain Standard Time zone, not yet 3:00 AM. I’ve made coffee, fed the dog, read today’s Proverb, and now sit with a heavy heart. The pain of loss—whether from 9/11’s thousands of lives taken or recent acts of violence like Kirk’s murder—breaks my heart. I’m not more compassionate or spiritual than anyone else; I share this because I believe many of you feel this same ache. The world’s brokenness, from violence to division, weighs heavily. Yet, I find comfort knowing God sees our pain. I imagine Him weeping with us, His compassion far surpassing our own, as He intercedes for humanity (Hebrews 7:25).



Yesterday, in response to Kirk’s murder, I posted on TruthSocial, a social media platform, tagging the President to urge that, if the perpetrator is found guilty through due legal process, the maximum penalty under the law be applied. My intent was to advocate for justice within the bounds of the legal system, not to call for vengeance or bypass due process. Unfortunately, my words were unclear, and the post was misinterpreted, leading to an immediate ban from the platform.

Reflecting on this, I see my mistake. I assumed my intent was clear, but I failed to communicate precisely. I don’t fault the TruthSocial admins; in a heated online environment, my words could have seemed inflammatory. I’m sorry for any confusion or harm caused by my lack of clarity. This experience reminds me to choose my words carefully, ensuring they reflect truth, justice, and love. May God forgive my shortcomings and help me grow in wisdom, in Jesus’ Name, amen.




The call for justice in tragedies like Kirk’s murder stirs complex emotions. As a Christian, I believe in accountability for evil, yet I’m also called to pray for mercy and repentance, even for perpetrators (Matthew 5:44). This tension is real: I long for justice to honor victims, but I also pray that God moves the hearts of the guilty toward true repentance. I don’t have all the answers, but I trust God to balance justice and mercy in His perfect way.



Today, we honor the lives lost on 9/11—a day that changed the world. The images of collapsing towers, heroic first responders, and grieving families remain etched in our hearts. As we remember, let’s also commit to healing and hope. The same God who comforted us then offers hope now, promising to make all things new (Revelation 21:5).



Dear Reader, I invite you to join me in prayer: May God protect the righteous, convict the misguided, and bring healing to our broken world. May He guide our leaders, comfort the grieving, and lead us toward unity and peace. And may we never forget the lessons of 9/11 or the hope found in Christ, in Jesus’ Name, amen.




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Wednesday, September 10, 2025

Charlie's Law on September 10th, 2025

Hello, dear Reader, and welcome to this obscure, free American blog, where I just share random thoughts (hence, the name).



I may never understand why I'm still alive at almost 54, but, today, someone took young Charlie Kirk's life... for political reasons. The young man was only 31 (younger than my children!) and leaves behind a beautiful family, including his wife and their two babies. 

This has GOT TO STOP - RIGHT NOW. 
That is why, I openly plead with American lawmakers on both sides to please create and pass Charlie's Law, legislation that will require the mandatory Death Penalty in cases of murder that is motivated by political reasons, no matter which "side" the perpetrator aligns themselves with. It takes powerful deterrents to exact powerful results. If we just let these people get away with these acts of senseless violence, it will not only continue, but will get worse. 

Please, from both sides of the aisle, this profoundly stupid division has GOT to stop. Your jobs are to serve us, this nation and it's people, the ones who elected you for your jobs. You need to be at work, Monday through Friday, every week of the year save two for vacation, period. Now get to work, get together, in fact, I say that those proven to be hardened partisans be immediately removed from office and replaced by whomever the runner-up was, full stop.

May God have mercy on poor, beautiful Erika and wrap His loving arms around her and their innocent little babies who will now grow up without their daddy. 


And, at the same time, there was yet another shooting at a school in Colorado, with three injured and currently in critical condition. Lord God, please heal all the injured and minister peace to all affected, in Jesus' Name, amen. 

Tuesday, September 9, 2025

Tuesday, September 9th, 2025 - Thoughts on Addiction

 Hello, dear Reader! Good morning, et cetera based on where in the world you are, and welcome to yet another day on this side of the grave! It's almost 3:00 AM in our time zone as I start this entry and (as per usual) only Max and I are currently awake. He's 20 years old now - which is amazing, and we're so grateful! - but, due to his age and special needs because of it, we feed him soft food twice daily, by himself (in fact, I think he's waiting for me now!) and dry food is kept out for all three dogs 24/7. We noticed him trying to pick at the dry food one day and having an obviously hard time with it, and are gratefully now meeting him at his point of need with the soft food, although I do wish we'd noticed his need from the very beginning, but am also grateful to have realized it at all.


I can be dense; those of you who know me in real life, know.

Right now, we've started smoking cigarettes again for about two weeks now, and I can already physically feel that it's *not* going to be sustainable for me to continue on this path, not at all. Even though it's cost-effective enough to roll your own like we do, the health costs cannot be denied and will end up being the deal-breaker for me before it's all said and done, due to lifelong asthma coupled with C.O.P.D. (for about the last twenty years or so now). I just believe in full disclosure and also want you to know, dear Reader, that I am every bit as imperfect as you are (if not moreso). Truth at all times, even if and when it makes me look bad (because optics mean nothing in the grand scheme of things, not to God they don't). 

So, due to my own idiocy (smoking!) I've been pretty sick for the last couple of days, spending most of each day and night in bed, sleeping on and off. I've quit smoking before: once for about four years, another time for two years, and the last time I'd stayed away from cigarettes for nine years before returning to that folly the way dogs return to their own vomit yet again. On the one hand, I know that it's possible to quit because I've done it before, and I'd really like for this next time to be 'it' (no more smoking, period). I'll keep you guys here updated with facts, good or bad, about how that's going for us as I don't see the habit lasting for much longer, not at our ages. If you, dear Reader, are also struggling with some addiction like I am (in this case, just cigarettes and weed but those things count) then I pray that you will be empowered to put down whatever it is and walk free, in Jesus' Name, amen. (and for us, too!)

You know, I'd really like to see RFK, Jr. move to make cigarettes illegal, in consideration of future generations that they will not even have the legal temptation for that method of self-destruction. Yes, I know that those of us who are currently hooked wouldn't be pleased with that decision, but when you look at it in the long-term and understand how future generations can be spared having to deal with that struggle, then (I for one) realize that it would, in fact, all be worth it. That'd be a super-ballsy move on his part, and, given the tobacco industry giants and their current (apparent) power, would probably put his very life at risk if he were to do so. May God empower him unto (more) good and correct decisions in his current office as he seeks to help make America healthy again. 

This time, when I quit, may it be forever, and may I quit the whole lot of it: cigarettes and the marijuana. My flesh will scream for a time, but that's never permanent.

So, what happened and how easy was it for my husband and I to pick that bad, expensive habit back up? We were hanging out with some friends; he'd had a few beers, and the next thing I know, he's handing me a cigarette. That's it. Now, I could have and should have refused, but no (and that's on me wholly, not him) and now, here we are. I've just got to get better at adulting (telling myself "no" - being my own parent). But maybe that's a life-long struggle for us all?


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Saturday, September 6, 2025

The Miracle of the Lost and Found Turtle

Greetings and salutations, folks, and welcome both to this obscure, American blog, yes, but also to yet another day above ground! Right? 
Today, I will tell you about another real-life miracle in our lives, this one involving our favorite, beloved pet, the original who's had the name "Freedom" for two years now,  Freedom the Ornate Box Turtle. She's about 5" long at her biggest measurement and weighs about 370 grams. A tiny little thing, we often have to scour our home to find her in any of her numerous hiding spots. 


A few days ago, with both of us searching for her for a good couple of hours, we finally realized that we were not going to find her and I called the police, who came out in a mere matter of minutes. Let it be known around the world that the law enforcement in and around Douglas, Arizona, US is among the finest the world has to offer. The responding officers, though visibly young, were fast, efficient, thorough, and - this one is huge! - compassionate. (But I digress).


My husband, of course, was like "There's no way on Planet Earth that I'm calling the police for a lost turtle" so I was like "Word, I got you" and called them because I do not care that I am now known as the local crazy turtle lady! 

Anyway, they created a report and left. 
An hour or so later after searching again and again, I was sitting at my desk, praying and crying, when I heard the Lord say "Go look under your bed". 

Now, dear Reader, please understand something: our bed, a queen-size that we bought from Wayfair.com a couple of years ago, is one that lays on a metal frame that is wholly encased by a zippered fabric cover and is flush with the floor that it lays on. With both of us laying on it, that's about 400 lbs of weight in addition to the weight of the bed itself. Nonetheless, I went and did what He told me to. 

At first, nothing happened, so I thought "Oh, I didn't do that right" and picked up the frame and mattress corner again. This time, when I did, the little turtle appeared to fall from the bottom of the frame into my hands and she was asleep! 

Now, I'm no physicist, but YOU tell ME how that tiny little turtle got herself under that bed setup, with he and I both laying on it! 

We've both carefully inspected the bed and the fabric-covered frame it rests on; there are NO holes in the fabric whatsoever. 

Therefore, since no logical explanation solves it, I gratefully defer to giving credit where credit is due - to God - with deep and ample gratitude. 💖

Edited to add that I did do the responsible thing and called the police back to thank them again for coming out and let them know that we'd found her. Like a true professional, the deputy laughed and said that he was just glad we had her back and thanked me for the update. 😏