Global Resources - Suicide Prevention (October 2025)

Good morning, et cetera, dear Reader, and welcome to this obscure American blog. 

The entire point of this post is to give you a list of resources, currently available world-wide, for Suicide Prevention resources; click here:

Global Suicide Prevention Resources (shared AI conversation)

This post is the ONE post that I wish, hope, and pray goes viral and I care for no 'credit' or fame whatsoever for simply making this available. The only thing that matters is saving lives! 

If you, or anyone you know, seems as though they're struggling with depression, et cetera, do not hesitate and please seek immediate help as you very well may be saving a life, and that is priceless beyond measure. 

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Growing Up, on Friday October 10th, 2025

Greetings and salutations in the wee hours well before Dawn as I write these words. 

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Yesterday, history was made when both sides of the Israel/Hamas war agreed to the terms of a 20-point plan pursuant to real (and, hopefully, lasting!) Peace. This is the Lord, working in and through the hearts of all involved Who is making this happen, largely through our own President.
This is nothing short of miraculous. 

I've even confirmed the factual nature of "news" reports by reaching out to a long-time friend of mine in Israel who has confirmed the wonderful claims we've been seeing in the news about this so, at least this time, the media, for once, isn't lying, a welcome and refreshing change, but one that is due to the singular fact that even their global web of liars can't hide this massive truth. Of course, I feel that it will be 'business as usual' (nothing but lies and twisted, false narratives) regarding any and all other matters, unfortunately, but I digress.

Anyway, when I was a kid (and there was some modicum of civility, healthy degrees of national pride, unity, and decorum that remained) I vividly recall that all Americans from both sides of the aisle would unite behind whoever won the presidency, no matter who he or she voted for...back then, at least.

In today's reality, "adults" (people of 18 years old+) act like histrionic, mentally ill children, literally and even deliberately ignoring truth in favor of emotionally-driven, profound stupidity. And that may seem harsh, but think about it for one moment: if an American wants the President of the United States to fail, that means that that person wants our nation to fail and, if that's the case, you're either deeply, profoundly stupid, or just plain evil, period, there is no other factual possibility here, other than perhaps "both". 

Therefore, dear Reader, please: do not be stupid. You have the power to choose for yourselves, or I wouldn't even bother (saying this). Please, ***USE*** the matter currently holding your ears apart and stop allowing yourselves to be driven by every little wave of 'feelings' that come your way! (We used to call it "growing up").

Time to grow up. 

When we operate based out of literally nothing more than our feelings, we're being ruled not like mature adults govern themselves, but rather the way children behave, led by nothing more or less than mere emotion, usually without anything based in any kind of truth or fact to back those feelings up. May I recommend the early chapters in the Book of James with regard to this very thing (only because it's one of the resources within the Word that I've found helpful with this issue in my own life though I remain very imperfect in this, among many, regards). 

Anyway, it'd be nice if American adults would start acting both American AND adult again, but I have deep and extremely-skeptical views on that.

One more thing is that people need to stop conflating 'intelligence' with the amount of "education" (read: college indoctrination) they've received, whether that be 'some college' to 'multiple doctorate degrees'. 
The smarter a person thinks that they are, the harder and harder they are to teach. Arrogance makes it impossible to learn, and without humility, Wisdom becomes nothing more than an impossible abstract  relegated to the people of ancient times alone.

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Cognitive Dissonance on Tuesday, October 7th, 2025

Greetings and salutations (again?) dear Reader, and welcome (back?) to this obscure, American blog where Free Speech is paramount, period, no matter what my own opinion is of what you have to say, to mimic Voltaire, I *will* die for your right to say it! 

About "misinformation" - you mean, LIES. 
People have been telling them for time ad infinitum and that fact is highly, highly unlikely to change anytime soon. It is incumbent upon you and I, dear Reader, to dig deeper than mere headlines and compare ALL of the information available about any given topic or story and THEN make an informed decision after exploring the stories being put out by EVERY SINGLE SIDE of the aisle, including the middle. 
Look for RECEIPTS: are there videos? photos? documents? numerous, credible witnesses? 

And THAT, dear Reader, is why so very many people in this modern, crumbling society of today's volatile world refuse to believe what the preponderance of evidence (including their own two eyes!) tells them. No, instead, they double-down, more married to preserving outdated, incorrect opinions in the face of Truth substantiated by facts to the contrary. 

Out of sheer curiosity: how many people has President Trump had arrested because he simply does not like what he/she said? Go ahead, list their names here in the comments... provided you can find even so much as one. You see, dear Reader, above and beyond the profoundly inaccurate claims of the extreme left, a true Fascist would not only arrest every single person who said things that fascist disliked, but the arrested people would then be imprisoned and/or 'unalived' simply for talking.
If you legitmately believe that to be happening in these United States, I'm all ears, so go ahead and list them, as I said earlier, in the comments. Take your time and do a deep dive; not for me, for yourself.
When you have a solid foundation in a belief system that is based on legitimate, factual Truth, then you won't fear hearing what 'the other side' thinks or has to say, because their ideas and words are not instantly perceived as a threat, even if (you believe them to be) inaccurate. No, if what you believe in is truly, really solid, you won't feel 'threatened' by different information one iota. If you're using your ability to truly employ critical thought and logic, then you'll either be able to disprove false claims by way of legitimately diligent research, or you might learn better information than what you believed before. In these politically charged times, it is important not to allow ourselves to be trapped in echo-chambers; for that reason, I value the people whose ideologies differ from mine, from friends, business associates, even relatives. Any and all ire I hold for what has become of the Democratic party in the US is all for those in elected leadership, who know better and deliberately lie and fear-monger to manipulate their constituents. That is NOT acceptable, not now, and not ever. But those of you who are simply rank-and-file voters like myself, no, you're victims of psyops and skillfully engineered propaganda, just like I was, and for so SO many years (in my case and still can be if I'm not very, very careful!)

Though I was a Democrat for most of my life (1979 to 2016), I've actually cast more votes for Libertarian candidates than all of my votes for Democrats and Republicans combined in this life; today, I consider myself a solid centrist, even though I felt that President Trump was the clear choice this last election cycle. In fact, in the previous election cycle (2020), I voted for Jo Jorgensen (and she's a woman!)
 

Anyway, dear Reader, I don't say these things for anyone to do anything performative for me, no. These suggestions are a soft challenge to YOU to gather ALL the available angles and THEN, THEN after hearing it ALL, then it is better to decide what smacks to you of being the most true. And do yourselves the favor, also, of searching for the reciepts as that is so, so very important.

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Bringing the Receipts on Monday, October 6th, 2025

Good morning, et cetera, dear Reader, and welcome to this beautiful day above ground! 
Here is the day's Proverb in text format (and, Biblegateway.com also gives you the option to play the audio as well). 😎

Well, I've decided that I've got too much to do (around home as well as work-wise with Grant Requests coming up in less than a month from today) and am not 'dressing up' every day like I've done basically all of my life. The things I'm doing so far do not require me to 'look professional' so I figure I might as well save money on makeup and let this dry, diabetic skin take a real break from all of that, all while maximizing my time and efforts into required, more productive endeavors for now. Obviously I'll still 'doll up' for business-related meetings and the like, but, for now? My 'every day look' is going to be a shower and clean clothes (and, of course, perfume, haha!) until the time comes that current priorities shift and mandate the requirement of 'looking professional'. I'm just trying to lean in to the Common Sense that I do have while making the most of the time at hand, seeing this shift as meeting the current need head-on.

While my husband was gathering four years of receipts to prove our literally perfect, never late, rental history, he also found this - my COVID-19 shot record:

I've used items to obscure personal information there, but read the date of the last 'vaccination' - August 5th,2021.

That date is three weeks (not two like I recalled incorrectly) prior to my first (of two) heart attacks, medical records for which prove beyond any shadow of doubt that the MI did occur on August 26th of that same year. 

Now, I'm not in the business of telling any sentient adult what to think or how to feel, that's your business. The simple, irrefutable fact of the matter is that I've brought the undeniable, irrefutable receipts to substantiate my claim, and, further, I am only one of numerous victims, many of whom did not survive. 

Therefore, I will never take any other single 'inoculation' again for the rest of this life, so help me God. I'll go to prison or be 'unalived' first, and you can take that check to any damn bank you want to. So, you can (wrongly, innacurately, or deceptively) call it 'misinformation' all you want, the fact is:

At the end of the day... on Friday, October 3rd, 2025

Greetings and salutations, dear Reader; I hope that this particular day above ground has treated you well and, if not, may what remains of this day be gentler to you.

I got out of the hospital yesterday after spending the night to receive a battery of intravenous antibiotics (Vancomycin and Zosyn) and am now taking a course of oral Doxycycline as a bit of added insurance. The reason? An accidental puncture wound in the palm of my left hand that I mistakenly didn't seek help for until the day following the injury; when I woke up to swelling, redness, and pain, I knew that it was time to be seen, stat, so I (finally) went. A lovely doctor who has seen me numerous times for various reasons made the call to keep me overnight based on the location and type of injury. I had no idea, but now, I do. Therefore, dear Reader, if you have any form of puncture/stab wound anywhere, if you have any kind of injury to the palm of your hand, and (of course) in case of any bite wounds (animal, human), we are strongly admonished to seek immediate emergency care in each of those cases without exception. To delay treatment can ultimately cause the potential requirement for complicated, open-hand surgery followed by lengthy wound-care. So! To avoid all of that, please err on the side of caution and seek immediate treatment. 😎

Anyway, there's a PSA for you. I mean, hey, if you can benefit from my ignorance, why not?! Right? 😂

I sent a business email, not long ago, here at the end of my day, and upon reading the sent version, found a place right at the beginning of the message where I missed an important placement of [Your Name Here] which is deeply embarrassing and, I'm sure, appears quite unprofessional, but that's not even all, folks. 
The three key on the keypad to the right of this $12 keyboard doesn't work, so instead of the address being correctly listed as "2003", it came out as "200" and these errors ARE in the final sent e-mail. Honestly, if he reads beyond that first glaring faux pas, I'll be amazed (in other words, it will have to be God working and nothing less). I used AI to help me write it as that helps me write while omitting many of my character flaws from leaking through, creating a more polished final message. 

Therefore, I will go back to sending business related messages far earlier in the day, when the ten cups of coffee are still stimulating the body and brain, rather than at the end of the day when it may take me a minute or two to answer simple questions such as "What is your name?" 😂

Ah, well! I'm only human, and even at my best, mistakes will sometimes happen; the challenge is to not let those defeat you, but learn from it if you can and try to do better; no one can ask any more than that. 

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9-24-2025 Wednesday Morning Thoughts

Good morning, et cetera, dear Reader, and welcome to this free, obscure American blog, where we are fortunately (again! haha) out of cigarettes and waiting on coffee.

Well, I failed at my doctor's office yesterday; the man gave me multiple opportunities to confess to the cigarette smoking and seek his help for it by asking "Are you sure there's nothing else?" - a few times. Even though it was more like "Hey, I already know, are you going to be honest with me?"

But, no; here comes dumbass me with pride and fear running the show.  I was just too embarrassed primarily (pride), since I'd made it nearly a decade without them before; public admissions of stupidity, it turns out, can be challenging and/or difficult; I should have prepared better mentally before going in.

Great, so now, instead of just handling it correctly the first time, like I should have and know to do, NO. I lied, and here we are. It's not like he won't find out or doesn't already know!

Now I could have just owned it and told him the fact that I'm not sure that I trust any of the smoking-cessation aids that Big Pharma has come up with to date; like Chantix ('may cause suicidal ideations' - what?!) Seems to me like just smoking is the safer option between the two, but I do see that this very statement itself is a logical fallacy. 😟 haha, I should write a book "How to kick your own ass with Logic" but I digress.

Sorry, but this mind needs zero help with overly-histrionic ideations, thank you! That's why it's a hard-pass on that (Chantix), and any other 'remedy' if that dangerous side-effect is even a remote potentiality and, given the fact that I'm already diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, doesn't that make the odds of those dangerous side-effects even more likely (for me)? Now, I've got to do something - but prescription remedies, the ones I'm aware of, those aren't going to cut it, I'm afraid. Every time I've quit these things so far in life, it's been just me putting them down and walking away from them, full stop.

I'd love to blame external forces but, like all of my other character weaknesses and failures - and there are many, it's 100% an inside job here; nobody can do this for me, I've got to be adult enough to fully own it. And now I have to apologize to my doctor for insulting his intelligence, yes, but primarily for the sin of lying to him; I despise lying, even and maybe especially from myself and am not proud of this behavior, but truth is truth so at least I can start there and take the next steps toward restoration by first admitting it. And I can only do that because I am first willing to admit it to myself. (Remember the recent Scripture about the light in you being darkness? To me, that's all about being honest with ourselves to equip and enable us to be honest with others and, as you can see, it's not a recipe for perfection - look at my own failure from yesterday as a living, current example). So, I'm still not perfect (to nobody's surprise including my own) but praise God that He's given us the instructions for how to rightly handle it when we mess up. Isn't it great to have instructions? 

Here is today's Proverb (Proverbs 24 ESV) dear Reader. And here it is in audio format as well because "Faith cometh by hearing, and hearing the Word of God"

May we each be brave enough to do right things today, may He create situations for repentance and empower us beyond our human, prideful fears as He works in and through us for the accomplishment of His will, in Jesus' Name, amen. 

54 feels just like 53, on September 21st, 2025

Good morning, et cetera, dear Reader, and welcome!
We find ourselves above ground today and, soon, the Sun *will* rise again - a daily announcement that HE IS, His mercies towards all of us brand new with each new day (see Lamentations 3:22-23). 

I woke up to a miracle today; my friend, Claudia, was riding her bicycle in Dallas and a massive truck hit her! Miraculously, the truck dragged her and did not roll over her, which probably would have been life-ending. No, when the driver figured out that something was wrong, he immediately stopped and summoned aid. From what she says, they were both surprised. So it's the first birthday gift that the Lord let me wake up to, Him showing out in the lives of people I love as witness to me, to you, to us all. Great is His faithfulness. 💖

Between you and me, dear Reader, I'm not discouraged one iota, looking around the 1987 fifth-wheel camper that we currently live in, with its numerous structural challenges that just naturally come with that situation. Our meager income also can't quell the Hope in my heart, because I can feel and see what is coming for us, and not just for us, but - more importantly! - for those we are called to serve. the Lord will provide a beautiful, safe home with all the necessities, enough to share with and care for all who come to our door. (and, remember: ALL means ALL - period).
Yes, that's what God has in store for us! It's only a matter of time now and we're excited to see how He will make these things manifest. Remember that, "Faith is the evidence of things unseen, the substance of that which is hoped for" and this morning?
This human heart is FULL of faith, for which I am very grateful - that alone is a priceless gift, straight from the heart of God Himself, because if I were to be lead by only what I see, despair would surely take hold and guide me down a path of emotional darkness, but the very opposite is true for me today. Thank You, Lord. I pray for you, dear Reader, that you, also, receive hope and encouragement directly from the throne of grace to lift you up above any and all seemingly-insurmountable circumstances, that your spirit will, indeed, soar on wings as eagles, high above the mundane, with your hearts and minds focusing on Jesus, the Alpha and Omega, our Creator Who fashions us from dust before birth and receives us each with loving, open Arms when He calls us Home.
I love you. Please pray for everyone you know, and our nation, and our world, and seek to meet everyone where they are out of mercy and kindness and thank you for your efforts. 💜