May 18th, 2025: A Sunday Afternoon in Southern Arizona

Hello (again, if applicable) dear Reader, and welcome to this simple American blog where Free Speech and Free Thought reign supreme! At least until they censor me, that is, but since we have a real President leading the free world now, censorship seems to be abating, at least to some good and healthy degree. 

Oh and by the way - for those who know me either in real life, or on social media, or both, it's only fair to tell you this: like him or don't, that's fine, but the instant I see any of you - no matter who you are - repeat any kind of message about MURDERING THE PRESIDENT like James Comey's obvious "8647" - bye bye, forever, and screw you too, because I draw the line at promoting out and out murder. Especially the murder of such a good and decent, selfless, brave, wise, and intelligent person like our beloved President Trump. 😡

May has more than a week left before we get into June, but I've already been to the emergency room three times this month, every time for exacerbation of asthma + COPD. 🙄 Everyone there knows me by first name now, which is a little embarrassing on one hand, though it's also kinda nice on the other hand, too. 

I just finally had to get gut-level honest with myself and today had to face the music: in this health, I just can't smoke marijuana anymore and get away with it, at least physically. To help convince myself, I asked Grok AI:
"What are symptoms of an allergy to smoked marijuana?"
(just click the question to read the full-text answer, if you like). 

It didn't take long to confirm what I already knew and, frankly, should have faced a long, long time ago - probably years, man. But, just like Jesus talks about our being blind to our own faults/sins in Matthew 6 by talking about "worry about the plank of wood in your own eye first and then you can see to help your neighbor with the splinter in his" (paraphrased). I had that "I've got a big ole plank in my eye!" moment. (and we think we're so smart - right?!)

(I'm not, that is)
😂

Anyway, we'll keep growing and selling it since it's legal here in Arizona and hubby enjoys tending the plants, so, why not? But I gave him all my personal paraphernalia and he put it away for me to help in that "out of sight, out of mind" kind of way. 
So I know that it'll be of some physical benefit, but who knows? God might really be able to give me more mental clarity than I've had for years, which will be a great bonus if so! 
I've got to go make confession to all of my doctors, too, and own the fact that I am finally now aware of my part in all of this. I mean, in all other ways I've been diligent but got far more serious about it today. I mean, there does come a point when even someone as thick as I am 'gets it' - thank God! 

Anyway, I'll leave you with this song that tells you how I feel right now, but in my case I mean "as dumb as" when he says "like a rock":

😂